PERFECTION THROUGH IMPERFECTION; THAT THING I TRULY DISLIKE ABOUT MYSELF


Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

There I sit, in front of my newly purchased iMac, looking at these photos on a very big screen… On first looks I love them, but the longer I look, the more I’m starting to dislike them. There’s something that keeps bothering me… In fact, it kept me from posting these images for way too long. If I would tell you, which I will in a little bit, you might say “no biggie,” but for me, it is a biggie much. Ever since I can remember looking at myself, that’s all I can see.

For a little bit I thought, let’s just retouch it. Not because of you, nor to make things seem “perfect”, but for myself, to make me feel better. I mean, you know I never really intend to make things look “better”, slimmer, or taller than they are. What you see it the real me. Good or bad, but in the last case, then usually with a pair of sunglasses on.

I HATE it, and it runs in the family, so I’m just screwed I guess. And of course, there’s a ton of doctors in New York who could potentially help me make it “better”, but “coulda, woulda, shoulda”? Maybe I should just stick to wearing my sunglasses to hide the bags under my eyes… Or is the fact that they are truly my biggest insecurity, a good enough reason to see a doctor? Is seeing a doctor for that a bad thing?

Anyway, so I first thought not to publish these images at all. Then of course I didn’t want that to do that, because I love the look, and everything around it – apart from those bags under my eyes… I could have retouched the shit out of them, which would have ruined the images, so not an option either. Increase exposure, less contrast… No, totally erases the mood of the images…

So here I am, bare “naked”, with the result of sleepless nights – two kids and a business does keep me up sometimes – and unlucky genes in they eye-section, but I’m just taking it in. Trying not to be bothered by it, trying to see the beauty, not the one thing I hate. It’s not easy, but I feel I have to, as it’s part of me. I’m not going to lie, if there is a way to get rid of them I probably would – and trust me, it’s not more sleep, and it’s not more water – but until then, I will TRY to embrace them as much as I embrace all the other bags in my room…

And of course, the fact I was wearing my dream coat from Chanel that day, the cutest little Dior bag, and was on my way to the Dior FW17 show, made up for all the bags ever been under my eyes #FACT

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Charlotte Groeneveld Thefashionguitar after Dior FW17 in Paris

Chanel coat | Dior t-shirt | Dior bag | Dior jewelry | Vetements shoes | 3×1 denim.



Photos by Jeff Thibodeau & Edward Berthelot


YOUR THOUGHTS

  • lisagalesloot

    BEAUTY! perfect as you are. thanks for sharing your vulnerability and honest perspective, the world needs it. knuffel x lies

    • THEFASHIONGUITAR

      KUS voor jou!

  • Great post, thanks for sharing! Love your coat!

    http://www.gloryofthesnow.com

    • THEFASHIONGUITAR

      Thanks for reading it Magda!

  • Dylana

    That coat is amazing!

    xx

    http://www.dylanasuarez.com

  • linda

    Je bent zo mooi, ik zou niets veranderen aan jezelf! Je hebt een prachtig gezicht

    • THEFASHIONGUITAR

      Thank you Linda. Xx

  • I too bare the genetic heritage of under-eye dark circles. I’m always deeply insecure about it and cannot not wear makeup. But I guess you either grow to accept them or do something about them. Don’t feel unlucky or sad. You look beautiful! Xx

    http://www.i-life-u.com

  • Liezel

    I understand what you mean. We all have that ‘thing’, but it shouldn’t matter and it doesn’t. You are perfect the way you are. And you look amazing! x

    http://www.fashiolieztamag.com

  • Moon

    You look BEAUTIFUL without glasses. I have been folowing your blog for the last month and I love it. Thanks for sharing your ideas on shoes, how to tie them, sneakers,and so many great ideas. I just got the pink romantic sandals!!!
    We all have insecurities, yours you can fix easily. Why worry about it, if you do not like it, fix it. New York has plenty of great surgeons. I am 55 years old and have had a facelift as well as several menbers of my family with a NY doctor:Dr Cap Lesesne. He is great. Check him out on the net.
    If not, just enjoy yourself: Remenber you are really beautiful inside and out, and I love your face without glasses.
    Big Hug and thanks.

  • I think you look beautiful and that Chanel coat is absolutely amazing. <3
    Emma // http://www.brooklynisburning.co

  • mmmm innovative shoes

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  • I love the pop of color! Great outfit. X
    http://www.thoughtsinstyle.com/

  • We are all always are own worse critics ! You look like a lovely woman,wearing a
    gorgeous coat. The shots are really nice, styling is a perfect relaxed casual feel right
    down to the Dior hair ribbon .
    Jandrew
    Dress The Part
    http://www.jandrewspeaks.com

  • You are stunning, and your style is so inspirational! I can definitely relate to those nagging insecurities though… something about editing jumbo-sized photos of yourself can bring those thoughts up! I find that I’m happier with my photos when I keep editing quick/simple and don’t spend too much energy harping on how my knees look or whatever, hah.

    xx
    Gem
    http://www.milkwhitemoon.com

  • Fashion Agony

    I honestly think your eye bags are a part of you and this is how I always remember you, they look very sweet as you have a very young and girly face.

  • marni

    you look absolutely lovely in every shot and your honestly is so refreshing. x

  • Hooorah for not touching them up – you are a real person Charlotte, with a busy life. We all have a part of our body we feel insecure about, it’s only natural, so I think this was a great subject to discuss. I was too busy swooning over that amazing trench to notice them in all honesty!!!!
    Sending you a virtual hug!
    Adele xoxo

  • Honestly I find that when there is something about ourselves that we are insecure about, we notice it SO much more than anyone else (I’ve got some weird skin and such a big nose!!) . I think it is so authentic and honest of you to not touch them up because just like us you’re a real person who has such a busy life and you’re rocking every day of them! Plus you are BEAUTIFUL! You look really lovely in all these photos and am just loving your outfit here as well!

    x
    Shloka
    http://thesilksneaker.com

  • Samantha

    We all have insecurities, and they feel a million times bigger when blown up in pics. You always photograph beautifully and look amazing in all your photos. It is so funny, because you are one of my favorite bloggers and I would never think you would have any insecurities! We all have our “thing”, right?

    X
    Samantha
    http://www.thenewyorkblonde.com

  • Nah you look fine! That just adds to your “trademark”. You don’t need to conform to the stereotypical beauty standards!
    http://theoraclejournal.net

  • diane

    I am also bothered by my dark circles, but I fear getting fillers. Everyone i know who has now looks like their cheeks are filled with hazel nuts. I do want my eyes to look less tired, but not at the risk of looking like someone else. That said, I just had my first Botox shot (I am in my 60’s so this was no rash decision) to reduce the deep furrows in my brow. Just the minimal dose in one small area, but I love the results. I no longer look as tired, but still like myself when I look in the mirror.

  • You look stunning !! Beautiful pictues & awesome look! :)

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  • Nice but I think normal Leather Jacket will suit you more, do give it a try once ;)

  • jagjeet singh

    woow….so much stylish jewelery in http://www.tattagold.com/……..i like it!!

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