Wherever you are, whenever it may be, there is always a silver lining. It might not look like it, at the start, but the sooner you find peace with uncomfortable situations, the sooner you start to open yourself up for the potential in it. Now I don’t want to say there is any good potential, or anything good at all in having a life threatening illness – and I’m not talking about my case which is in fact very well treatable – but no matter how bad it is, when you focus on that tiny bright thing, you will start “feeling” a tiny bit better. And this can be anything, from brushing your teeth after taking horrible medicines, to watching your favorite series in bed over and over again. It may come across trivial, but believe it’s true. For example, every hour I need to take a spoon full of lemon juice, to make my salivary glands get the radioactive iodine out of my body. You know, that sour feeling you get in your mouth. So the first day it was fine, but I’m only on day two and I’m pretty sure I never want anything to do with lemons after this week. Though, the good thing is that I’m stocking up on plenty of vitamin C. Positive, right!
Another silver lining for me is being alone. Sounds weird, but hear me out. I started with the thought it would be extremely relaxing to spend a week alone. But also day two already proved that I should have been more “careful with what I wished for”. I mean, every mother of two will agree with me, the idea of not having to do anything for a day sounds heavenly. But of course in that though you have your kids running around you. I have to keep my kids on a minimum of ten feet distance, with a door and a drawer to block me and the hallway from them coming in. I cannot see them. And I hear them cry for me, of course, cause they are young and even though they understand a lot, this is just weird. Mommy is in the other room, and she is not coming out?! Okay, but I was taking about my silver lining in this. Well, it’s hard, but I found it: I can answer my emails (yay), I indeed can watch my favorite series, even re-watch them, and I can read all the magazines on my bedstand. It’s nothing in comparison to holding Stella and James, but as I said it’s a silver lining…
Designers Remix silver pleated skirt (size gone? Get it here! Or similar one here and here) // Zara sweater (similar one here and here) // Celine slip-ons (similar one here and here) // Givenchy bag (similar here).
Photos by Jeff Thibodeau